Off Day after a Day Off

It was so nice to have a full day in the middle of the week to do whatever I wanted. Lunch with my aunt and relaxing with my friends. It’s crazy how random days can surprise you.

However, I think it threw me out of balance. Today was rough at work. I felt like I had no idea what I was doing. I was overwhelmed. Counting seemed nearly impossible. I mean, everyone needs to remember, including myself, that it’s been less than a week since I’ve actually been doing the work. I am not going to be 100% confident of everything. I’m going to have to ask questions. I’m going to have to take my time.

But I got paid, and even though it was only for a week’s worth of work, I was pleased. I’m excited to see how a full pay period turns out. And how my life turns out.

Hopefully it’ll get back on track tomorrow.

And I like…

• having a day off in the middle of the week.
• Pub Stumpers.
• having a Blockbuster movie pass.
• that it’s almost like I have more freedom now that I have a full-time job. You’d think it would be the other way around…

I’m still bummed out about my camera. But until I get my Canon for Christmas(yes, I’m basically expecting it at this point), I’m going to focus on the Holga and (thanks to Ed) picking up a disposable camera like the good ol’ days.

I’m off to enjoy a movie and sleep in. So nice to have holidays off for a change.

More of the same.

Things are still goin’ good. The job is getting easier, as is the schedule transformation. I can’t stress how thankful I am.

But…can I have my new camera now? Because I’m pretty sure I killed mine. Which reminds me…I need a tripod. So I don’t risk this baby’s life by balancing it on shaky foundations and possibly allowing it to fall in the bathtub…or wherever.

If this sucker doesn’t work once it dries out, I may cry. My camera is one of my must-have purse items. You never know when something memory-worthy will happen…but it’s usually everyday. Time is flying anyway. I guess I’ll have one before I know it.

TGI Weekend

I love having my nights and weekends free. Things are going really well, and I’m so glad I got this job. Even more, I’m so thankful and blessed that I was even given this opportunity. I can only hope that everything continues to go so smoothly. I’m extremely lucky.

On top of that, I had a wonderful day today thanks to nice fall weather and my sister being home. I love when she’s here. We went out shopping all day (more like looking around but whatever) and for lunch, and now we’re going to stay in, watch Bored to Death, drink wine, and relax. Can’t ask for anything more.

My Style

{Image from PaperTissue. Which is obviously my favorite place to get photos :)}

• I spoke too soon, I think. Yes, waking up early sucks. But I’m feeling a little better today.
• I have a favorite t-shirt, but the reason I love it is a secret and that kinda makes me love it even more.
• Growing your hair is like watching the clock somewhere you don’t want to be. The more you glance, the slower time goes and the more torturous it is. The more I want it to grow, the longer it takes.
• Coupling is one of the best shows I’ve ever seen in my life. I’ve watched the entire series twice (and plan on doing it again) and have watched numerous episodes repeatedly. It is so clever and funny and identifiable (and I find it comforting). If you watch it, I’m sure you will fall in love.
• Things are going to get better. They already are. Yay!

Changeling

Today ended up being a very trying day for me. I don’t know if it was my lack of sleep, my hormones, the full moon, or the nerves, but I was teetering on the edge of hysterics for most of the day. I had several quick breakdowns once I finally got home (one was triggered by the new Macy’s commercial, another by a sentence someone told me about 4 years ago). I know this is a good thing, the new chapter, the next step. But…I don’t know, man.

There’s so much to learn, so much to be done. But what kills me is, I already know this isn’t something I’m passionate about. And it’s fine because it’s money and it’s benefits and it’s a stepping stone. But I wasn’t prepared for this. To get serious. I don’t want to be tired at 9:30 PM. That’s not me.

I miss college. I miss power hour after dinner. I miss movie nights at Rafter’s room in the Ramada. I miss walking down the block and being at my best friend’s place or my favorite bar. I miss King’s Cup and Flip Cup. I miss blasting my music so loud and getting ready to go out. And not worrying about going out until 10 PM. I miss staying up until 4 AM. I wish there was a way I could do it all over again. Especially senior year. And completely different this time. For starters, maybe I wouldn’t cut my hair so short again. Among other things.

I know it’s crazy to say so soon but I’m scared of losing my youth. I don’t want to stop doing crazy things ever. I don’t want to come home from work and be home all night. I want to do things and see things. Be places. I will work for the future. I will work for the life I want. Even if it sucks for now.

New Month, New Life

It’s November. The year is almost over! How did this happen? Where did the time go?

It still hasn’t sunk in that last night was my last time working (hopefully) at Blockbuster! I’ll miss it. It was a great gig, the best job I’ve had in my life so far. I’m glad that I was able to get and keep the job for 2 whole years. 

But now, it’s on to something a bit bigger. I don’t know what to expect. Part of me is nervous, but part of me is just ready to start the next chapter of my life. It’ll be nice to have something steadier. I don’t even know what to expect. Hopefully, the fact that I’m not freaking out so much is a sign that everything is going to work out fine. Hopefully.

EDIT: Great day. Perfect way to start off a new month. Loved this.