Harsh Times

Things were going so well, but I guess you can’t enjoy the highs if you don’t go through the lows. At first, I was just feeling funky and weird. Then, unfortunately, a few things happened that complicated my life. Oh, and there’s also the fact that I always complicate my life even more. I’m trying really hard to get over this hump. I’m hoping I don’t have to deal with it or worry about things for too much longer. But, as all these experiences usually do, I’m thinking of a lot of things I want to change.

• I need to start doing exercise. Even if I just start doing it once a week for 20 minutes. I always feel better. It’s not too look good. It’s too feel better, to exercise my body and mind.
• I need to start eating better. Less processed foods. I want to start reading labels and picking foods that have very few ingredients, or at the very least, very few ingredients I don’t recognize.
• I need to start going to bed earlier. I stay up killing brain cells and hurting my eyes (and sometimes crushing my soul) looking at Facebook all night. I should be getting well rested, so I can wake up and have some time in the morning to get ready, have a good breakfast, and not feel like crap when I get to work.
• I need to be more responsible with my heart. I tend to feel bad doing things I want to do or doing the right thing for myself because I worry about how other people will feel. And then, I get my heart broken or my trust betrayed and I end up in horrible situations I could’ve very easily avoided. I feel bad that I can’t wear my heart on my sleeve. But I guess it’s more so that I should be choosy about who I do that with.
• I need to be strong and tough. I need to tackle issues head on. I need to stop feeling bad for myself and just forget about it and let things happen.

I need some retail therapy. I need a good time. Good food. Good people around me. No worries or stress. I just want to get back to good again.

Glasses

My eyes are in a bit of a pickle. I went to the doctor and found out that I’ve been wearing contacts way too often, and my eyes are becoming very irritated and sensitive (and in turn, bloodshot and dry and scary) because of it. According to him, this is my wake-up call. If I don’t start doing it properly, and giving my eyes a rest by wearing glasses more, I might be stuck wearing glasses to tha death. So…needless to say, I’m wearing my glasses. Especially since I’m waiting for my eyes to not be so red anymore.

Unfortunately, I’ve had this pair since 2006. Let’s just say, they aren’t exactly spot on prescription-wise, and they aren’t really my style anymore. So this is the kick in the pants I need to finally buy a pair of nice, simple, professional, womanly but also cute spectacles so that I can protect myself, look and feel comfortable with myself, and see perfectly all at the same time.

I guess it’s a little obvious what style I’m into. 

{Images from Google and Geek, c’est Chic)

New Tunes

A friend shared this video with me on Facebook, because he felt it was a mix of Hot Chip and The xx, two bands I really enjoy. He was right. This video is super-cool. There are huge popular artists who can’t get their videos to look this clear, crisp, and flat out awesome. And of course, I love the song. Electronic beats make me smile.

Tag!

I’ve been tagged by Sarah over at Love You in the Fall, which is an adorable mix of fashion, music, inspiration, and humor.

I feel lucky, I am an obscure tiny blog and am convinced no one really reads this so…

1) Thank the person who gave this to me: Thanks, Sarah! I feel special.

2) Copy and insert award into post and on blog.

3) Name three things you love about yourself.

1. My personality/sense of humor/POV. If everything else seems to be crumbling, I always seem to amuse myself with things that I think are funny/cool. I think it’s so important to have your personality and all that it entails define who you are more than anything else. You use that as fuel to get through your life. And it will always be there for you, because it is you!

2. My body. No, it isn’t super fit or super thin or anything. In fact, I’m surprised that I’m at my weight considering the horrible foods I eat/booze I like to drink. However, this body is what carries me everywhere. It hasn’t really let me down. I want to take care of it more, exercise, and treat it well. But otherwise, my body isn’t something I stress over, and I’m pretty pleased with it.

3. My sense of style. This defines me. What you see is what you get. I like to mix and match and do different things and be a different person any day of the week. But it’s always me. I can be a very insecure person, but honestly, the clothes I wear/buy/are into have helped me open in up in someway. A lot of people remember me for bright magenta/gold leggings (and sometimes they are scared) but once they meet me, they get it.

4) Post a photo that you love.

 

This was hard to choose. But this is from my first color roll of Holga 120 film, what I would call the beginning of my photography hobby/camera obsession (which, as you know, is still alive and well). I took this at LBI in New Jersey, where I went last year with people who I hardly ever talk to anymore. If I were to do that now, I don’t know if it would be as fun as it was last year, or comfortable.

Regardless, this is one of the first double exposures I took. It makes me happy every time, because the beach is always a great place to be, the weather looks perfect, and it reminds me of my fun sort-of college days.

5) Tag 5 people you wish to pass this award on to:

Unfortunately I don’t know many people with blogs…and I’m super shy about tagging people I don’t really know (even if I’m a follower of their blogs). So if you read this, go ahead and do it!

4th of July weekend.

How is this already over? How is Maria already back from Florida? Man, time is going so fast. I don’t know if I like that so much.

Lately, I’ve been in a funk, which sucks because life has been pretty great lately. I’m trying to overpower that sad part of my mind and remind myself of all the good things. I don’t like to get all emotional on the blog, or too personal. But I feel the need to address my current state of slumpiness just in case it results in me blogging a little less than usual.

I think I’ll make a list of things I’d like to improve soon…but I’ll work on that later (One of the things on the list? Definitely working on my procrastination.).

Sia

This is sooo cute. And I love her. That’s all.

For the record…

I like vampires. I read Twilight. I read the Sookie Stackhouse books. I’ve seen all the movies. And I love the show True Blood. I also loved Buffy the Vampire Slayer growing up. For some reason, my sister and I have always sort of loved supernatural TV shows and movies (and for me, books). I know it’s a huge phenomenon right now, and unfortunately, it’s become a negative thing to enjoy these movies and this TV show. But ya know what? I don’t care. And admit it…you’re kind of curious. And you kind of like it…