I do believe everyone is unique. We all have some different thing about ourselves, whether we wear it on our sleeves or not. Isn't that the greatest thing about being us?
However, I hate when people lie and try to say that they don't shape themselves out of pieces of other people.
I know for a fact that I've seen something, or heard about something, or liked something, and said, yes, I will adopt that into the family that is my personality, or style, or life.
People love to say that because they love obscure music or independent films or 50 cent ironic t-shirts because they are original. But they didn't do it first. Someone else did.
So maybe that shoots my entire original theory to shame...then again, we'll do it in a way only we can. Someone else can wear the same shirt or play the same music in their headphones, but it probably won't have the same effect as it would on each individual.

To show you what I mean, about myself anyways, I wanted to share with you the idols...the...goddesses that have molded and shaped the way I dress or style my hair or rock out in my life. I may not be them. I may not ever be exactly like them. And honestly, I don't want to be. But I'll admit that some of the things they do have inspired me along the way, to shape it into something more me, and to inspire me a little bit more to find myself.


I don't know many people that would ever say that Natalie Portman is unattractive. If I met someone who said that, I would probably shun them for life. For almost a decade, Natalie Portman has held the number one spot in my heart. Yes, she is gorgeous, in a way that is both stunning and approachable. She's smart. When she did the whole stripper role (something most young actresses seem to do to say "Hey, I'm sexy and older and I can do what I want"), she did it because it came with the character. It wasn't about showing America she can shake her goodies. Maybe I've always liked her because she seemed an attainable goal of beauty for me. Like, maybe one day I could actually look like her because we both have brown hair and brown eyes and duh duh duh. But if you know me, you know I love her. She has had her hair everyway, length-wise, and looked good everytime. I have used many of her pictures to help with my new haircuts. Tell me you haven't done that before. She's grown up a lot, but she's always been beautiful and I'm sure she always will be.

My Idol
M.I.A....wow. What do you say about such a kickass person? Ma gurl is 31 years old, looks like she is 18, has given the middle finger to so many people through her style, her persona, and her music, and is still rocking out with a pregnant belly. When I first heard the song "Galang" I was like, cool chick, cool clothes...sorta weird music. I put it on the back burner, 'til I saw her CD sitting in the radio station hear at school, WRKC. I burn anything onto my computer that seems remotely interesting, so when I finally listened...yeah, I fell in love. Much to my roommates dismay, but then again, they don't like most of the music that comes out of my room. M.I.A. raps her deep Sri Lankan/West London voice on top of loud noises that oddly come together as music. And as for her clothes. Some may say the 80s have thrown up on her, but I admire it. I wear loud clothes myself, on those days I'm feeling particularly saucy. And yes, I've gotten some shit too. But I don't give a fuck, and M.I.A. taught me to do that. Besides, the people givin' me the shit, my friends...well, they're just jealous ;) . I must admit I am slightly possessive of her. When everyone freaked over Paper Planes, I was like, yeah this was a good song when the CD came out last year and none y'all cared about it. But those Judd Apatow-produced movies, much as I love them...they'll make anything popular. Besides, she needs to support the baby now. And if my girl's getting love, that means she'll keep making music and in turn, makin' me happy.

The Rockstar

I am by no means a Paramore fan. I think they produce some catchy tunes sandwiched between mediocre songs with uninventive guitar riffs and the same lyrics you've heard a zillion times placed in different orders and aided with the use of a thesaurus. That's harsh. Ouch. But I mean, let's be honest. They do, in fact, rock. They have captured the hearts of millions, boys and girls alike, and they do it well. Whether or not I actually will manage to sit through an entire Paramore album, Hayley Williams is definitely an idol and an inspiration to me. For starters, here's a chick, a small chick, who rocks out with three other guys. Leads the band. And with an amazing voice to boot. She can rock the heck out, and I'm jealous, because who doesn't want to be a rockstar? On top of that, her style is crazy. I mean, she is bringing some form of punk and emo and scene and whatever the heck else she's doing to the masses. Her hair is my favorite part. She's had it basically every color, mostly insane colors, that you can imagine...my favorite being the recent cherry red that I hope to do soon, and hopefully with a similarly rocking effect. She has an amazing voice, whether she's singing sorta crappy songs or not. I find myself singing them, bobbing my head, and wishing I could be on stage like her. She is only 20 and has two albums and a bunch of concerts under her belt. I am going to be 22 this year and I've done...oh, about nothing. I have something like 36 cents in my bank account. This is inspiring.

I have many honorable mentions. Yes, Britney Spears is insane, nowadays, but back in the day, well, I could understand why parents hated her. She made you think about sex. I know I wasn't alone in wishing I could be on camera with a bunch of rhinestones glued to me looking that sexy. I loved Rachel Bilson back in the heyday of The O.C.. She doesn't do much now, so I don't always remember her, but she's got great style, and also that certain sex kitten-ness that I often wish I had. Shannyn Sossamon is another one of those sorta weird, interesting hipster people who has weird hairdos and dresses different, but sometimes in just a strange way. But she's gorgeous and she's pulled it all off. Plus, some have said I look like her haha.

I am a little bit of all these and a bunch of myself. I love boy's tees or shorts and tight tank tops and girly colors and prints. I've mixed and matched the styles of these people or the feelings that they've inspired me to have. Yeah, I don't want to necessarily be them. I will always be me. I don't think I will ever get to be a movie star at the Golden Globes. But I can find a pretty dress that makes me feel like a goddess of the silver screen. I won't be an underground princess but I can rock a pair of magenta spandex leggings and feel like one. And I might not be a rock star, but I have outfits that make me feel like I could kick ass on the stage.

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