Likes/Dislikes

Likes:

• Water with lemon
• Sleeping/cuddling in a big comfy bed all day
• Hummus
• Playing with cameras/camera apps
• Spending time indoors with the family
• Netflix
• Fresh air
• New clothes
• Daydreaming about what my life can be

Dislikes:

• Having to wake up and go to work
• Being nervous about any new situation
• Letting anxiety get the best of me
• Arguing with people who care the most
• Dreaming more than doing
• Going to bed upset
• Feeling inadequate
• Comparing myself to other people
• Caring what other people think

And that’s all folks. On to the next one…

Harsh Times

Things were going so well, but I guess you can’t enjoy the highs if you don’t go through the lows. At first, I was just feeling funky and weird. Then, unfortunately, a few things happened that complicated my life. Oh, and there’s also the fact that I always complicate my life even more. I’m trying really hard to get over this hump. I’m hoping I don’t have to deal with it or worry about things for too much longer. But, as all these experiences usually do, I’m thinking of a lot of things I want to change.

• I need to start doing exercise. Even if I just start doing it once a week for 20 minutes. I always feel better. It’s not too look good. It’s too feel better, to exercise my body and mind.
• I need to start eating better. Less processed foods. I want to start reading labels and picking foods that have very few ingredients, or at the very least, very few ingredients I don’t recognize.
• I need to start going to bed earlier. I stay up killing brain cells and hurting my eyes (and sometimes crushing my soul) looking at Facebook all night. I should be getting well rested, so I can wake up and have some time in the morning to get ready, have a good breakfast, and not feel like crap when I get to work.
• I need to be more responsible with my heart. I tend to feel bad doing things I want to do or doing the right thing for myself because I worry about how other people will feel. And then, I get my heart broken or my trust betrayed and I end up in horrible situations I could’ve very easily avoided. I feel bad that I can’t wear my heart on my sleeve. But I guess it’s more so that I should be choosy about who I do that with.
• I need to be strong and tough. I need to tackle issues head on. I need to stop feeling bad for myself and just forget about it and let things happen.

I need some retail therapy. I need a good time. Good food. Good people around me. No worries or stress. I just want to get back to good again.

Les Miserables

Nothing seemed to be going right yesterday. It was Friday, so I was thisclose to the weekend, but at work we also happen to be open an extra hour and the day just could not move fast enough. I got laughed at by a member for making (and instantly correcting) a small mistake, the heater in my car refused to work (this happens but it usually kicks on in 5 minutes…my 20 minute drive home was icy), Burger King decided to discontinue Cheesy Tots (I no longer have a reason to go there anymore!), a couple of family Christmas commercials made me tear up (I’m always emotional, but that was too much) and I didn’t eat anything from noon to 10 PM.

Regardless, it’s the weekend now! So everything that sucked just made it that much more enjoyable to be home, watch The Hangover with my dad and sister, drink some sangria, and sleep in today. Sure, sleeping in for me is only anywhere from 8-9:30. But I can stay in bed and watch TV until I’m ready to move, instead of grumpily rolling out of bed or hitting the snooze repeatedly. They are calling for snow, and I’m not sure how to feel about it. It’s the company Christmas party tonight, so a part of me feels bad if I can’t make it. But the other part doesn’t really want to go so…heh heh.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

And can you believe it? This time next week, Christmas will be over! So make sure to get in the spirit before it’s too late!

Remedy

I was very grumpy when I woke up this morning. Unreturned phone calls/texts, strong winds, rainy slush, and waking up earlier than I wanted to all factored in.

So I made the decision to pick up a Hot Chocolate from Dunkin’ Donuts. I don’t know what it is about hot cocoa but…it was like my mood instantly changed. It’s delicious and warm and it almost feels wrong to drink because it’s chocolate…but it’s so right.

I suggest that, even if you’re in a good mood, you pick up or make some hot chocolate tonight. Because it might change your life.

Bad Time to be a Lunatic

I don’t like this week.

It was the first time I screwed up at work. My skin is freaking out. My hormones (and, because of that, my emotions) are insane. And I’m extremely exhausted but I can’t/don’t want to stop moving.

Nothing much to report so far.

Saw Paper Heart yesterday. It was good. Nothing I want to proclaim to the world about. Well, except for one thing. It proved to me that I’ve become a huge skeptic. And I shouldn’t say it but…I don’t really believe in love these days. I believe you can love someone. I do. But I feel like it’s all just a bunch of bullshit made up for the movies. The good bits, I mean. Because…that isn’t life at all. In real life, people let you down and screw you up. And you just sit around waiting for all of it to go away or the feelings to disappear. It doesn’t though. They don’t. And sometimes, no matter how hard you try, well…it just won’t end.

In other news, I cannot wait for the weekend. A much needed trip away from home to be with my sister and her friends and some long-lost friends! Damn, can I have my Canon yet?

P.S. I don’t mean for this to sound negative or depressing. I hope this is just a phase. For now, it’s not such a bad place to be. Sometimes, you have to be selfish and focus on what you want and what you need so that you can be open to something like love if it should ever come your way…

My life hurts…

Man. Today was one of those days when pretty much every part of it sucks and you find yourself hating everything and being completely incapable of holding back every emotions (namely anger, annoyance, and sadness).

Good thing about today: I got the job and accepted it! Full-time, benefits, all the holidays off (finally!), growin’ up.

Bad thing about the good thing about today: I have to quit a job for the first time ever. And I don’t hate the job. And I just transferred to this new store. So I’m super-nervous. But…I’ll survive. I guess…

Facts

• Sleeping in is almost always the best medicine
• Water is too
• Dollar drinks aren’t always the best idea
• Revlon nail clippers are the best
• He’s probably just not that into you
• Sisters are the best kinds of friends

I had a pretty miserable day today. I couldn’t stop getting sick. I had to leave work and everything. Such a bummer. But once I got some more sleep, my stomach calmed down. I think this might finally be the end of my few weeks of sickness. I’ve dealt with everything in the book.

Anyway, my sister is leaving for Florida when I’m at work today. I won’t see her for 3 weeks!!!! She invited me to dinner at local Mexican restaurant, the Brass Buckle. We ate salads and a plate of filling nachos. Then, after I laid down for a while, we gave my dad his father’s day present since she won’t be here on Sunday. I also gave my mom her very very very belated Mother’s day present. Despite the miserable beginning, everything ended pretty well.

I hate bad days.

Today, I didn't enjoy much of anything.
I often feel like I have no friends. Or that the ones I have aren't right for me.
I want someone who will sit at a diner with me for hours, or stay up late, or do crazy road trips on a whim. Where are you friend?

I know, I know. My midnight snack is actually a meal.
And yes...I balanced it on my computer...which is probably why it sucks.
And yes. I use Twitter.
And yes...I do like hummus.